I don’t know about you, but lately with all this rain and grayness I have found it difficult to motivate. Being the coach and total analyzer that I am, I began to think more about it.
Why does this happen?
Where does it come from?
As I began to dive deep, I realized this has been the case for many years. This has been my pattern. I often find myself having these energy cycles that coincide with the weather and the seasons. When the sun is shining and the weather is warm, I am highly energized, motivated and ready to take on the world. I find it so much easier to make time for my self-care because the weather is beautiful and I naturally want to be outside, exercising and moving my body. I gravitate towards lighter meals like salads, chicken and veggies on the grill. I love to network and meet new people.
As the weather begins to cool and the leaves change here in New England, I start to notice my energy shifting slightly, slowing down a little. I still feel motivated, yet my body knows change is near. On the days it is crisp and sunny, I want to be outside, exercising and soaking up as much sunlight as I can knowing those days are limited. On the days it is cool and rainy, I tend to begin turning inwards, backing away from the raw foods and lean towards warmer, cooked meals. My networking and socializing slows down some and I begin taking more time for myself.
Before I know it, it is cold, dark and I am totally unmotivated. I find myself wanting to nest, staying inside making soups, taking baths and reading a book. My yoga practice shifts with my energy. Some days I want a more fiery, energizing practice, while most other days I am drawn towards yin or a restorative class. I shift into a more nourishing and nurturing mode, feeling less motivated towards excess physical activity.
I also notice I am less in tune with my creative energy and feel like I don’t have as much to offer. I need and want to focus most of my energy on filling my own cup. Much like animals hibernate in the winter, I too, find I tend to go inwards. With this hibernation, comes guilt and lack of self-acceptance. It is interesting to me that when the weather is great and my energy is high, I am happy and totally accepting of me, yet when the weather changes and my energy wanes, I began to feel badly and no longer accept this part of myself.
Can you relate?
I began to wonder….
How can I be fully accepting of myself knowing that my energy is cyclical?
I had this total ah-ha moment last night talking with a friend as I began explaining all of this to her. I have always know this has been a pattern for me, but I never made the connection that I should be building my schedule around these patterns.
I started to realize what if I stopped fighting these natural cycles and instead accepted and leaned into them more? Can I integrate them as a part of me?
Why do I struggle to accept the low energy moments just as much as the highs?
This self-knowledge has been super useful towards creating a flexible routine throughout the year. When I know my energy cycles are high, I book meetings, networking events and give talks. When I know my energy cycles tend to be lower in the winter, I can plan to schedule more time for self-care and personal work. This also applies monthly as I notice my energy is much lower a few days before menstruation.
In the past, even though I knew I had less energy, I still continued booking events and spending many evenings out. The drive to continue doing was so strong that I wasn’t able to listen to what my body truly needed, resulting in getting run down. This was my pattern for as long as I can remember.
By doing my own deep, personal work, I have been able to create the space I need to release the guilt and the constant desire to be doing. By letting go of the fight and the negative energy associated with it, I can focus my energy on more positive, self-serving behaviors. Being more in tune with my body's needs and having the understanding that my energy is cyclical not linear makes it much easier to go with the flow and meet myself wherever I am in the moment.
Does any of this ring true for you?
Would love to hear your thoughts!